Friday, February 11, 2005
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR =)
8 feb
had cny celebrations in school. sucks totally okay. firstly, the j2s were in the LT while j1s in the air-conditioned hall. and who were the ones who helped raised funds for the air-con?!
US. urgghh. secondly, the performance lasted for only an hour. so it ended about 8.45. so damn early! might as well dont go right. thirdly, no lion dance! grrr. all in all, there wasnt the festive mood around. zZz. dotZ. anyway, headed home and left for malaysia in the afternoon. had reunion dinner. then my uncle lighted those fire crackers after midnight! you know...like miniatured fireworks! heh. tired to study a tiny bit but...failed. heh.
9feb
received lots of
ang baos! gee. and went to this shopping centre at dont know where. the mall was only half opened. Zzz. anyway didnt buy anything. my mum was the one who kept buying. she's a fast shopper. dotz. had reunion dinner again. then had to go bai nian but auntie jessy(mum's friend) lost her way. diaoz~~ so we were late. had 3 cups of wine. was abit dizzy and had breathing difficulties. why huh. dotx. taught my lil cousin some english after that. haa. i was sober enough to be able to do that. lol. had an early night. couldn't concentrate on studying. boo.
10feb
accompanied my parents to do some shopping again. my mum kept commenting that the things there are cheap. d0tz. my 7th uncle was giving a dinner treat but was a pity we'd missed it. cuz we'd to leave in the afternoon. been eating so much! f-a-t. zZz`~~ home sweet home =) have test next tuesday! organic chem somemore. how am i supposed to find time to study?! have to bai nian on weekends, tomorrow and monday got cca!.. mad is it. urghh.
hatred? distress? whatever it is...i dont like how i'm feeling now.
i refuse to let it flow...
can the wound inflicted ever heal.
can the painful memories ever fade.
can i unlock the door in my heart...
without getting hurt. again.
can i still believe in you...
without having to face disappointment. again.
can i still give you my heart...
without being left in an abyss of lonliness. again.
i wanna have faith and confidence in you. i wanna continue the story. but the truth is, can i?
can these be done without me getting hurt over and over again? i really wonder who'll be able to unlock the door within me. who'll be able to show me that loving someone...isn't as scary as it seems.
take me with you
1:36 PM
